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"Susan was waiting for you to come home. She wanted to leave the park
when she knew you were here," Sabastian said.

"When she knew I was here?" Sol asked.

"Yes, that is what I said."

"How does she do that? How does she know things? Honestly, it's kind
of eerie."

"At first it bothered me, too, but now I accept it. What I find more
disturbing is how authoritatively she speaks about God," said Sabastian.

"Yeah, the conversation she and I had in the car that one night was
very upsetting. I felt like the child," responded Sol.

"She and I had a similar conversation tonight," responded Sabastian.

"Was she ever taught about religion?"

"Not to my knowledge. In fact, aside from the lessons all of us have
given her, I do not believe she has had any formal schooling at all,"
Sabastian answered.

"And yet what she says seems to make so much sense to me."

"And to me," said Sabastian.

"What do you think of God?" Sol asked.

"I do not," replied Sabastian.

"You must have some opinion."

"Perhaps there is a God, perhaps not. At this point in my life I do
not think it matters. If there is a God, I have done many things that
would result in me going to hell. If there is no God, then I will
simply die someday."

"Our kind consider themselves to be immortal. Do you really think
you'll die?"

"I assume so. I have killed so many of our kind that I know
immortality is but an illusion. You live until someone stronger kills
you. There will come a time when someone stronger than I kills me,"
said Sabastian.

"Interesting. I hadn't thought of it that way," responded Sol. "And
at that point, I guess you'll find out if Susan was correct about God."

"Yes, I suppose I will."

"I'm not sure what to believe, myself. I was raised believing in God.
I know some of our kind who claim to have personally met Jesus Christ.
But it all seems so unreal. So hard to believe."

"Believing is the basis of faith, if I am not mistaken," replied
Sabastian.

"Yes, it is. You know, I want to believe. I try very hard to believe.
But my faith isn't strong enough. I haven't met God's son, I haven't
been touched by him, I need proof."

"It was Thomas, if I remember correctly, that had to touch Jesus'
wounds, was it not?"

"Yes. Doubting Thomas."

"Well, be careful what you ask for. If there is a God, he might just
give you the proof you need. Or, perhaps, he already has, and you are
too blind to see it," Sabastian said.

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